Mike Skinner is a genius, today i’ve had a rough day.
I don’t like books, audiobooks are mediocre but I could listen to Mike Skinner all night long. Very interesting.
Secondly i popped my tyre again today, dad was pissed off as per, mugged him a bit back - not taking shit. I’m pretty sure that Paula the therapist would have wanted me to give him shit about the shit he was giving me as well.
I’ve had a rough day other than that though, I went to the gym to let off some steam, i’m getting stronger but after 3/4 sets of curls, both Viren and I constantly complained for the next hour about how everything hurt and how we were walking like we’d shit our pants because we physically couldn’t straighten our arms. As much as I want to gym constantly the jacuzzi and pool out back are def my fav parts - the gruelling pain of lifting a weight feels good over time but at the time i’m constantly tempted to shout ‘fuck this’ and move on.
I’ve got a good couple weeks coming up, well a good month really. Including my debut DJ set at a friends party which will possibly be the most off the wall party i’ve ever been to. However non amazing and extreme this sounds, he’s hiring a burger van and having a rave in a forest like area near his house so it does sound and appear like it’s going to be pretty mad. I’m currently off all drugs, not even smoking any weed. I think it’s good for me but I think that night will be a test. Other than that i’m actually filling my summer up pretty well. I’ve got a holiday a while away but that’s something to look forward to but more so I’ve got my house in London to move in to. I’m struggling with coming back home and living here as in fairness every little thing seems like a chore.
THIS BITS KINDA GAY AS IT’S ABOUT EMOTIONS
I’m moving on from an experience that however fassy and gay this sounds will make me stronger as a person. I post on here merely because she won’t (well I hope she isn’t) seeing these posts. If she is though then so be it, life goes on and at least she’s still kinda hearing from me even if it is just going over what i’ve done with my day and how many gay emotions I have under my belt at the moment. HERE COMES THE GAYEST BIT OF ALL. I honestly am day by day shocked at how much like I wouldn’t even say miss her but miss hearing from her and what she does. I can still contact her but I don’t want to seem too keen, not yet anyway - maybe in a few days. I haven’t heard from her in over a week though and it’s weird. We used to text on the regs so yeah, i’m sure if you’ve split up with a girl before then you will have experienced this exact feeling but this is a first time for me so yeah, it’s a bit of a shock to the system. I’ve opened up to the boys a lot more recently and they have been great but I can safely say I preferred going over my issues and talking to her over the boys, my parents and a therapist. Mainly because even though they won’t theres always the fear of the boys taking the piss and even if they don’t know give it a few months and they’ll be bang on it with the classic “REMEMBER LIKE 3 MONTHS AGO WHEN…” and it will go on and on. But as Mr.Grimes would say that’s great ban’a. My parents are hard to talk to because you want to hide somethings from your parents and even emotions have to be hidden sometimes. Finally I feel like a loony chatting on a leather sofa in a room with a therapist.
I don’t know why I have written this really, i’m reading it back completely clueless as to what the purpose of this is, moreover who the fuck will read it because let’s face it not many people will be interested in the average life of a 19 year old boy from Kent. Oh well, the show goes on and I have written it so it would be a waste of my time to delete it now.
I have no idea what to do
Don’t take drugs, they fuck you long term
I fucking hate feeling like this
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